My Biggest Botox Regrets (& What I Wish I Knew About My Face)

“Our glow isn’t injected. It’s remembered.”

For a long time, I believed I needed to fix my face to be lovable.

What I didn’t realize was that no procedure, no amount of Botox or filler could repair what was actually a disconnection—from my body, my past, and my own self-worth.

This blog isn’t Botox bashing. It’s a reckoning. A reclamation.
It’s a story about trauma, surgery, identity, and eventually—peace.

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From Facial Deformity to Facial Reconstruction

I was born with a facial deformity that required over 15 years of orthodontic treatment—expanders, braces, retainers, and eventually five facial surgeries in my mid-20s to allow me to breathe, eat, and speak without pain. My journey included:

• Severe crowding and a narrow palate

• Open and crossbite that made chewing nearly impossible

• Breathing issues that impacted digestion and development

• A complete reconstruction involving bone grafts and titanium screws

This experience shaped how I saw myself. I didn’t see “pretty.”
I saw survival. I saw difference. And I learned to perform instead of simply be.

The Glow That Surgery Couldn’t Give Me

What followed those surgeries was something no one prepared me for:
The outside world saw a different face—and responded differently.

Suddenly, I had access. Pretty privilege is real.
But it didn’t feel like me.

My nervous system was still wired for fear and performance.
My somatic pattern was still avoidant and self-critical.
I looked different, but inside, I hadn’t yet healed.

When Fillers Made Me Cry

Years later, I was gifted filler through a content partnership.
I said yes, even though I knew my face was full of scar tissue.
The moment the needle hit—my body remembered.

I burst into uncontrollable tears.
Not because of the pain (although it was unbearable).
Because I knew I had abandoned myself. Again.

I wasn’t fixing anything—I was disappearing into what I thought beauty should look like.

The Nervous System Side of Beauty

We’ve been taught that glow comes from products, routines, and procedures.
But the truth is: Glow is biology. It’s:

• Circulation

• Fascia hydration

• Lymphatic drainage

• Nervous system safety

And yes, sometimes it’s also a serum or sculpting tool—but it must begin within.

A Glow Rooted in Resilience

After my twin pregnancy, I underwent a full abdominoplasty (a “mummy makeover”) to repair a 6cm abdominal separation and excess skin. But this time, the experience was different.

I no longer hated my body—but I had grieved how long I had abandoned it.

This time, the recovery was paired with:

• Gua Sha and facial fascia release

• Ice therapy and breathwork

• Daily somatic practices to reconnect with my face and body

• Nervous system awareness and emotional regulation

I realized: My glow didn’t come from chasing beauty.
It came from choosing to see myself through kindness.

This Isn’t Anti-Botox. It’s Pro-Choice.

I’ve had Botox. I’ve had filler.
I’ve regretted both—and I’ve also learned from both.

I’m not here to tell you what’s right for your face.
I’m here to ask the questions I wish I had asked myself:

• Is this for me, or for how I want to be seen?

• Am I glowing, or just disappearing into “acceptable”?

• Can I reconnect with my face without numbing it?

Redefining Beauty at Achievher

At Achievher, we believe that true glow comes from inside your systems, not just from what you apply on top.

We teach women how to work with:

• Their nervous system to create emotional safety

• Their fascia and lymph to support healthy circulation

• Their beliefs to release shame and rewrite self-image

Whether it’s through our Freeze to Flow event, our 21-day Glow Code Protocol, or our Gather membership, we want women to reclaim beauty as biology—not performance.

Ready to Remember Your Glow?

Here’s how we can support you:

👉 Join us at Freeze to Flow, a four-hour somatic and fascia reset designed to clear emotional buildup, reconnect you with your body, and reignite your energy.

👉 Start the Glow Code Protocol, a 21-day somatic ritual journey to support your glow from the inside out. Available now with your 7 day free trial.

Because beauty isn’t something you chase—it’s something your body remembers.